2 summers ago, in Amsterdam. i think time is passing a little too fast.
still in daze and almost unable to comprehend but it’s a fact; i passed my final exams and i am graduating this year.
these past few months have been so difficult. the struggle was so bad that there was never a day that i wouldn’t cry because i was terribly stressed out and depressed.
i… i… i passed… finally. i am graduating.
g r a d u a t i n g.
in times of desperation, people do whatever, whenever.
I should not take things (and time) for granted, ever.
note to self: cherish, cherish, cherish.
can’t wait till I fly home again.
being irrationally self conscious makes me feel really bad about myself. on certain days, I just want to hide myself in my own world. this peer pressure sucks on a very whole new level. trying to overcome it is a lot harder than I thought but I’m really just not trying to let it eat me up. doing that alone…. is exhausting.
can I not care?
caught myself staring at these windows that were at every nook and cranny of central Paris.
sometimes I’d imagine myself being the only child but many times I failed because it was so difficult to imagine my house with no noise. people who held a part of my life with them in their own lives, people I knew I could turn to regardless of time and place and people I would never give up on because just like a part of my life is in theirs, their lives are in mine. that’s how I realised I can never lead my life the same without my siblings (also people who would never stop annoying me for the rest of my life)
please excuse my cheese.
a childhood dream come true. kind of. but i had lots of fun, i haven’t been to a theme park for ages.