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in times of desperation, people do whatever, whenever.

I should not take things (and time) for granted, ever.

note to self: cherish, cherish, cherish.

can’t wait till I fly home again.

being irrationally self conscious makes me feel really bad about myself. on certain days, I just want to hide myself in my own world. this peer pressure sucks on a very whole new level. trying to overcome it is a lot harder than I thought but I’m really just not trying to let it eat me up. doing that alone…. is exhausting.

can I not care?

caught myself staring at these windows that were at every nook and cranny of central Paris. 

25 years.

sometimes I’d imagine myself being the only child but many times I failed because it was so difficult to imagine my house with no noise. people who held a part of my life with them in their own lives, people I knew I could turn to regardless of time and place and people I would never give up on because just like a part of my life is in theirs, their lives are in mine. that’s how I realised I can never lead my life the same without my siblings (also people who would never stop annoying me for the rest of my life)

please excuse my cheese. 

breakfast on the last day at Trocadero. 

a childhood dream come true. kind of. but i had lots of fun, i haven’t been to a theme park for ages. 

view from the Basilica of Sacre Coeur.

sometimes you take someone for granted and expects them to not be offended or angry regardless of what you’ve said. keep in mind that the other person have feelings just like you too. put yourself in their shoes, you probably won’t like it either. don’t wrap yourself with your own feelings, you’ll hurt someone and yourself unintentionally.

pulvins